tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-197597102880101691.post9126459293956678196..comments2024-03-27T13:22:58.455-07:00Comments on Eye on the Edge: Into the fireDJanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07152183871573797791noreply@blogger.comBlogger13125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-197597102880101691.post-19693705659609151042015-01-04T09:08:53.259-08:002015-01-04T09:08:53.259-08:00I admire you for the ability to record your life s...I admire you for the ability to record your life so honestly on this page. You are an amazing woman. Your ready smile these days gives no clue to what you've been through in your life. I'm glad your days are happier now. Keep pressing on, enjoying these "good" days.justme_alivehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03912966969702106429noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-197597102880101691.post-63254973780444410052010-02-18T19:27:11.354-08:002010-02-18T19:27:11.354-08:00I'm just getting caught up here, and I admire ...I'm just getting caught up here, and I admire you so much. You are an amazing person. I might have said that on my last comment, but it's very true! I look forward to reading more of your journey!<br />-TiffTiffhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04532340067482088353noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-197597102880101691.post-51962149658157185572010-01-25T13:54:35.063-08:002010-01-25T13:54:35.063-08:00DJan, I came here via Nancy's blog and have re...DJan, I came here via Nancy's blog and have read your last four posts (this being the last one, so far). You are brave and clear in your openness and I wish you success in your quest to find yourself explained.Deborahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10892637441668897411noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-197597102880101691.post-23577717524075216882010-01-10T11:06:51.110-08:002010-01-10T11:06:51.110-08:00Oh My! I have never experienced abuse like this an...Oh My! I have never experienced abuse like this and can't even imagine. I sometimes cry when my husband just raises his voice to me. I also find it interesting to read your sister's comments.Leave a Legacyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08736682143653420541noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-197597102880101691.post-70297630207291761012010-01-04T17:28:48.271-08:002010-01-04T17:28:48.271-08:00DJan, I have been here all along reading each of y...DJan, I have been here all along reading each of your posts. You went through some incredible times the first half of your life. You must have had a hard working guardian angel to come through it and not become a statistic. It has to be difficult to put all of this on paper but it also will help to finally delegate it to the past. <br />JudySquirrelQueenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00634513897599275287noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-197597102880101691.post-40934029925620671992010-01-03T20:09:31.184-08:002010-01-03T20:09:31.184-08:00DJan, You were very brave and very lucky to get aw...DJan, You were very brave and very lucky to get away. What a journey you have made..I guess you waited for just the right Smart Guy to spend your last years with:)Far Side of Fiftyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07995757632158408442noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-197597102880101691.post-82411617536163431182010-01-02T09:26:48.075-08:002010-01-02T09:26:48.075-08:00Wow, what an incredible journey you are taking in ...Wow, what an incredible journey you are taking in this blog. I'm sure it's difficult, but it also seems very worthwhile for you...and helpful to others, too.Nancy/BLissed-Out Grandmahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17223278142557533175noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-197597102880101691.post-33825915908740904042010-01-02T06:39:39.587-08:002010-01-02T06:39:39.587-08:00I've seen enough of the effect of too much dri...I've seen enough of the effect of too much drink on an otherwise decent human being to realise how hard it must have been for you and your son. Well done for surviving, and being brave enough share, to let others see how they may do the same!Jinksyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01686101468214361004noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-197597102880101691.post-53631632948708577512010-01-01T19:15:12.307-08:002010-01-01T19:15:12.307-08:00I was afraid of exactly this when I read the end o...I was afraid of exactly this when I read the end of your last post.<br />I am SO sorry you had to go through yet MORE emotional (and physical!) pain before you finally got to experience a better life....<br />Your son had to also go through so much.<br />Thank goodness he never abused him when he was a child and had his drinking bouts.<br />Of course, what is the definition of abuse?<br />He saw his mother being abused, and not leaving the situation until it was an emergency....that WAS a form of abuse for him, after all, wasn't it? And being a child, he was powerless over it all.<br />When my parents went through years of drinking, I would hear arguments between them. They never got physical, but they would say emotionally abusive things now and then to each other when they were both drunk. I would be alone all night, go to bed, only to be awakened by hearing this....it was painful for me and I had no one to turn to. It made the lonliness even more traumatic. Because I didn't know if that meant that the next day would be worse, if they were breaking up or what would happen.<br />To THIS date, whenever people verbally argue or if I am with someone who drinks and is not themselves...I get extremely anxious...and leave the situation as soon as possible.<br />I have drink rarely and when I do, never more than 2 drinks..I refuse to ever lose control of myself or be around anyone who does. <br />Just once I would like to go and experience getting drunk..but I just can't let myself.The Retired Onehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02466803019073952351noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-197597102880101691.post-15983671645689521922009-12-30T12:40:48.424-08:002009-12-30T12:40:48.424-08:00Seems like you saved the best for last....Seems like you saved the best for last....wendyytbhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11958628213008688022noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-197597102880101691.post-90104027221766605412009-12-27T19:51:10.284-08:002009-12-27T19:51:10.284-08:00How chilling. The amount that you have experience...How chilling. The amount that you have experienced and overcome in your life, particularly that young, is staggering. It's comforting that there were people willing to help you when you did reach out. I would agree that someone was watching over you.<br />What is it about humans that keeps us from doing what we know in our hearts to be the right thing for us until we hear it from someone whose opinion or advice means more to us than our own (as with you and the doctor)? You can at least be thankful that David didn't ever strike out at Chris the way he did you. <br />I agree with the Lucy and Dick Show; alcoholics are so damn angry and depressed and incapable of looking honestly at anything (particularly themselves) that they turn on those closest to them. It's easier to pile all that blame on someone else than to admit their own culpability in their lack of happiness. You were just a handy target, not someone to blame. I'm sure you feel guilty enough about a great deal of that; let some of it go...<br />I cannot imagine the feelings that these old memories dredge up. I'm sending warm and healing thoughts your way. I hope that you can look at your past with honest and forgiving eyes instead of guilty and judgmental ones.Whitney Leehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07766231420593480962noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-197597102880101691.post-74045692034045476292009-12-27T12:59:05.235-08:002009-12-27T12:59:05.235-08:00Nobody can be more convincing or attractive than a...Nobody can be more convincing or attractive than an alcoholic when they want to be! (I know...) It pains me no end that you write: 'His anger and hate for me fueled his drinking.' It's not you he hated or was angry with... you just got in the way of it. It was anger and hatred of himself as with all drunks. Stop putting the blame on your own shoulders but squarely where it belongs... on his! OK?Lucyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12339761246576419905noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-197597102880101691.post-38553184840739100522009-12-27T08:17:00.354-08:002009-12-27T08:17:00.354-08:00Wow! Maybe it's for the best that part of your...Wow! Maybe it's for the best that part of your life was never something I knew about. How close you came to being a statistic and never knowing how good life can be. You're right; you owe that doctor your life (I guess your guardian angel was watching over you right then). Since I know a lot of the "rest of the story", what a different person you are now. It makes me love you even more.Norma Jeanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16012021195725446402noreply@blogger.com