I stepped from Plank to Plank
A slow and cautious way
The Stars about my Head I felt
About my feet the Sea.

I knew not but the next
Would be my final inch -
This gave me that precarious Gait
Some call Experience.

Emily Dickinson, c. 1864

Sunday, June 11, 2023

Finally a little rain

Mountain scene with fog

 I live in one of the prettiest places on earth, if you ask me. This was taken a few years ago on a mountain hike with the Trailblazers. I don't know if I will ever again be strong enough to see this view again, but there are so many that are similar, and I am still able to be out there, even if "there" is not quite as high or as strenuous as in earlier days. It doesn't matter, really; I have so many chances to take a nice forest bath whenever I want. The term "forest bathing" comes from Japan:

The term emerged in Japan in the 1980s as a physiological and psychological exercise called shinrin-yoku (“forest bathing” or “taking in the forest atmosphere”). The purpose was twofold: to offer an eco-antidote to tech-boom burnout and to inspire residents to reconnect with and protect the country's forests (National Geographic).

We were very pleased to see the rain return Friday night. We got close to half an inch here in Bellingham, when we expected next to nothing.  We are still at least six inches shy of the normal rainfall we receive in the spring, with the normally dry summer season fast approaching. I am happy that it's wet outside again. I never thought I'd be such a fan of mist and fog. But I sure am.

I have accomplished quite a few interesting feats during my life, and sometimes I see how one activity emerges from an earlier one. In 2000, I had a life-changing parachuting accident when I broke my pelvis in six places, shattering the right sacrum and losing an artery in my right leg. After a long recovery of several months, I again returned to skydiving, but also became familiar with the need to take up long, brisk walks to regain circulation in the injured area.

It was one of the reasons to find a place to retire that would offer plenty of opportunities to get outside and learn about the local hikes in the Pacific Northwest. I decided to retire in 2008 with a pretty good annuity package and we moved from Boulder, Colorado, to Bellingham, Washington. (SG was already retired and collecting Social Security.) It was a fortuitous move, one that has given us both everything we need to continue to thrive.

And now it is fifteen years later, and we are finally through the pandemic years, with our lives substantially changed, but still quite functional. I no longer have daily classes at the Y, where I went for so many years, but have become more active with the local Senior Center, which offers many activities that I've taken advantage of. The Senior Trailblazers offer three different levels of hikes, one of which I began to attend every Thursday back in 2009. Now I've moved over to the next level of hikes, and am considering attending the easiest of the three groups this year. Many of my friends have already made the switch. The Senior Center also offers yoga and zumba classes, which I am enjoying very much. During the pandemic, my long-time yoga studio closed, so it was nice to try this very different yoga practice. It's not the same, but then again, neither am I.

It's been eight years since I last made a skydive, but I still think of myself as being a skydiver. That's where I met my dear partner back in the last century, and we've now been together for thirty years. That's an almost unbelievable feat for someone who didn't think it was possible for her to find a partner who could still bring her so much joy for so long, even though our skydiving days are far behind us. As I age, I notice how important it is to allow what's next to emerge without trying to direct or cause it to flow in any particular direction. I don't know what's best for me and am happy to let go and let whatever happens, happen. I am so fortunate.

Love is our true destiny. We do not find the meaning of life by ourselves alone—we find it with another. —Thomas Merton 

Feeding a wild friend

I was looking for inspiration for this post and went browsing in my digital photo album and came across this picture. Although it was years ago now, I still remember the feeling of the bird's claws holding onto my fingers. Very strong and determined, always looking for food in that white landscape. These "camp robbers" are very bold, and if you are eating a sandwich and put it beside you for any reason, it will be gone in a flash, carried off by a hungry bird. I was happily sharing my trail mix with this guy.

I've had many memorable moments while hiking in the mountains, in spring, summer and fall. I don't venture out in the winter any more, and although this looks like it is taken in the middle of winter, it was actually in July. The snow at that altitude doesn't leave quickly, making for a scene like this in the middle of summer. The animals who make their home up there are strong because they must be to survive.

Because of the pandemic, my life has narrowed over the years, and I have lost a few friends who have either moved into other activities, or actually moved away. I am losing my long-time hiking partner Melanie next month, as she has successfully sold her home and signed the final papers this week. I was hoping she might change her mind, but now it's official. Fortunately for me, I've got other options and new friends to make in that hiking group. Last Thursday it was eight women, all new acquaintances, but fast becoming friends. 

I am also fortunate that I don't need to drive myself up into the mountains to enjoy the hikes, since we carpool and with my ancient car and failing eyesight, I am grateful that others can take over that task. Plus I really like sitting next to someone new and finding out all about her life as we drive to our destination. As long as I can continue to forest bathe and make new friends, I'll be fine.

Oh, and I almost forgot one of the most important aspects of today's existence: my virtual family. Who would have believed that people I will never meet in person but know intimately through their blogs could be such as important part of my life? And it's not likely to be going anywhere, since all I need is a good laptop and internet connection. Surely even when I can no longer hike, I will be able to continue this activity and maybe even expand it. But as I said earlier, I don't know where the future will lead me, and I will not try to make any predictions. What I do know is that I am a fortunate and very grateful person for all that life has brought me over the years. Thank you for being a part of that.

And with that, I will leave you for another week. My partner still sleeps quietly next to me, that dear sweet piece of my heart. My tea is gone, and my friend John will soon arrive to transport me to our Sunday morning breakfast. Until we meet again, I wish you all good things, and offer up sincere gratitude for your presence in my life. Be well.


14 comments:

Tabor said...

Accepting that we can no longer do what we love, means we rely on memories and photos. I have spent many hours pondering what I will be giving up in the years to come. You do live in paradise, though.

aurora said...

What a wonderful and insightful post! Much of aging well is having a positive mindset. Which you do so well. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, time and the beautiful forest.

Rian said...

I agree that living where you do is a 'gift' you gave yourself... and has turned into one you share with us virtual friends. Thank you. I will probably never experience your forests, but can get the 'feel' of them by enlarging your photos. Thank you again. Friends (real and virtual) and love (for all critters) make life worth living - especially when we get to our elder years and our days may well be numbered.

Rita said...

When I became housebound 20 years ago it was a huge drastic change. I was rather down about it for quite a while. I read a lot back then...Netflix DVDs came along...I have always been into arts & crafts...but then I started a blog. It was just a way for me to kind of write a mass letter to all my people who were far away because I had moved up to Fargo/Moorhead area. Well, to write to all the ones who actually had a computer at that time, anyways--lol! I had no idea of the wonderful people I was going to MEET. Never even expected to meet anyone new, you know? My blog family has meant so much to me, too. I don't know how I would have made it through these last couple years without them. Several have become pen pals, too. I cherish my blog family, too. You are a gift to me, dear lady. Bless you. :)

Anvilcloud said...

You continued to skydive into your 70s?! That's amazing.

Salty Pumpkin Studio said...

Your words are uplifting. Being able to be outdoors is a wonderful part of life.
Here in Vermont, there regular are group hikes fir folks to join. Most are too strenuous for me, and I imagine for others as well.
A senior hiking group like yours could be a solution here.

Linda Reeder said...

This was a lovely post. While I am not up to hiking in the forest now, I do live among some majestic trees of my own, and birds nesting all around. I will be content for now.
Today we travel south to Chehalis to attend my niece's HS grad party. I'll visit with my sister and see all of her big, dynamic family. Next week it will be Irene's turn.

John's Island said...

Good morning, Jan. Your post this morning is an interesting life reflection. “It's been eight years since I last made a skydive …” That tweaked my curiosity to see if I could find the post where you sold your skydiving gear to Lauren. You published that post June 8, 2015, and gave it the title, The day my world changed. More recently, you reminded us that change is the one constant in life. Life on the Edge is the story of your life. I’ve enjoyed being along for the ride. Thank you for sharing. John

Far Side of Fifty said...

Be well and have a great week!

Gigi said...

As our circumstances change; either due to age, a move, or whatever; we evolve and adapt. I know you will miss Melanie, but there is always emails and phone calls. And I feel sure as you move about your daily life, you will find new friends easily.

Back when I first started my blog, I never DREAMED of the people I would "meet" and that have become so dear to me; like you!

Have a great week, DJan!

Marie Smith said...

I didn’t know you in your skydiving days but I always associate you with it. You are an adventurous soul who is my example of taking a risk in my own life. My risk taking won’t be jumping out of perfectly good planes though.

Red said...

Retirement time goes by very quickly. I've been retired for 26 years and I'm not tired of it! I have many things I like to do. I like meeting people I've had association with before. At lunch today I met someone who I'd volunteered with at the local theatre. What it boils down to is that you make your life what it is.

Linda Myers said...

OMG, has it been nine years? How did that ever happen?

I brought my hiking boots and my hiking shoes back home from Arizona. I'm in week two with my new knee. In October I'll see where I am. Then the boots and shoes will either remain in my closet or be given away to someone who will wear them. Either way, I am okay with it.

Chris said...

Sounds wonderful that 'forest bathe' We no longer live by woodlands altho they're not so far away, but I now need safer ground to walk on. The sea front promenade is my walks these days with the help of my trusty wheels, hate walking with out it now as I over balance eaasily. But I walk so that's the main thing. Lovely reading about your life.