I stepped from Plank to Plank
A slow and cautious way
The Stars about my Head I felt
About my feet the Sea.

I knew not but the next
Would be my final inch -
This gave me that precarious Gait
Some call Experience.

Emily Dickinson, c. 1864

Sunday, December 22, 2024

Solstice and Christmas this week

Yummy Christmas treats

Years ago, Carrie created these lovely Christmas cookies for those of us in the coffee shop. It was Christmas Day and the shop was closed, but I could see her inside working away.  I snuck inside and got this picture. I believe I ate one of those "canes" in the foreground, but it's been so long ago now (nine years) that I've forgotten and am not even carrying around the leftovers on my hips any more. Carrie no longer works there, and I no longer hang out there, either, but instead at a different coffee shop a block away from this one.

Yesterday was the first day of winter, with today the first full day. After today, the light will slowly return to the skies, earlier and earlier, until by the end of January I will be able, in the mornings, to see the obvious return of the light. For about the first month of winter, the lengthening of the days is almost unnoticeable. And then... the first shoots of green will emerge from the ground. For now, however, we are in the throes of dark days and long winter nights. It's okay: 'tis the season.

When all the world appears to be in a tumult, and nature itself is feeling the assault of climate change, the seasons retain their essential rhythm. Yes, fall gives us a premonition of winter, but then, winter, will be forced to relent, once again, to the new beginnings of soft greens, longer light, and the sweet air of spring. —Madeleine M. Kunin

When I found that quote by Kunin, I got interested enough to look her up and found that she was the first woman elected to a governorship (Vermont) in the country. She not only lived into her eighties, but last September she celebrated her 91st birthday and still seems to be going strong. I downloaded onto my Kindle her book, Coming of Age: My Journey to the Eighties. She has written six books and still continues to write, these days it's her poetry that speaks directly to me. I recommend the above-mentioned memoir, however, which I am enjoying very much. These days I am drawn to others who are navigating the rough shoals of aging. I should add, "aging well," which she seems to have done. At 91, she is still active and has created a role model for us youngsters. I found this delightful article online about her; I hope you enjoy it as much as I did.

One thing I have found that seems to be working for me: I read and follow much less of the political drama going on in Washington. Although I still read my usual headlines and articles that attract me, I am also spending more time doing online puzzles. It's been years since I started with Wordle, which I still "work" every day, first thing usually, and I have been enjoying the Advent calendar from a dear friend. She sends me a subscription to it, and this year I must find the hidden Santa within the busy Paris landscape. Only three more days before Christmas, and the end of Advent. Today we lit the last Sunday Advent candle (online, of course) and I have already solved today's Wordle. 

And now I am casting about for something interesting to write about, something that will help me to make it through the seemingly endless rain and dark days of the winter solstice here in the Pacific Northwest. There is so much to be appreciated in the world today, along with plenty to be sad and angry about, but I get to choose where I will place my attention. I choose to focus on the light returning at the beginning of the winter season. Instead of lamenting what is wrong in the news, I can read the poetry of Governor Kunin and learn how she's managing to grow old gracefully and thoughtfully. The last poem in her latest book, "Endings" says everything I could possible add to this post. Thank you, Madeleine, for your life and your work. 

***

I would like to probe deep,

write about life and death,

the meaning of existence.

I should have the answers

by now,

when the end is so near.

I procrastinate.

I tell myself

there is still time

Maybe tomorrow

Or the next day

Or the day after that

to write about the meaning

of life,

The meaning of my life.

Have I made a difference?

Have I been kind?

Have I dropped a coin

into a beggar’s hand?

Will I be remembered,

and by whom?

For What?

I’m too tired

No more deep questions, please.

Maybe tomorrow,

Or the next day

Or the day after that.

***

And with that lovely ending, I will wrap up this holiday post and give thanks for all of you, dear readers, and all of the wonderful and wondrous days that we will share ahead, along with all the many days behind us. Let us light the last Advent candle and look forward to the days ahead of us. Be well, and I wish you all good things, surrounded by love and light.



9 comments:

ApacheDug said...

I haven't clicked on that link yet, but I did enjoy that poem "Endings" very much, and it's question will I be remembered, for what & by whom. We move on from people who have passed too quickly, it seems. DJan I always enjoy your introspections and as you learn from others, I learn from you. Merry Christmas to you and your loved ones, my friend.

Rian said...

Love that poem, "Endings". Good questions... all! And I think at this stage of our lives, we ask ourselves all of them. Will we be remembered? And for what? Could we have done more?
Merry Christmas DJan!!

John's Island said...

Thank you for sharing "Endings" … it is wonderful. I appreciate your kind wishes and return same to you and SG. Merry Christmas!

Rita said...

Enjoyed the poetry. I'm also avoiding the news and only checking headlines. Best for the state of my mental health--lol!
I remember writing a poem when I was fifteen about when I was gone from this earth that I hoped that, even if they didn't remember my name, if someone thought of me and smiled...that meant everything. :)

Elephant's Child said...

Endings is beautiful. Thank you dear friend. And thank you for who you are - an inspiration to me and no doubt to others.
Happy Christmas.

Linda Reeder said...

I decided a long time ago that the meaning of life is to LIVE IT! Live it as best you can, as fully as you can, as purposefully as you can, as kindly as you can. And so in these winter months we will look for joy and try to give joy. We'll find projects or jobs or activities to keep us active and busy and productive, and we'll enrich our own joy by giving it to others.
Last week I hugged a woman in the grocery store that I didn't know and may never see again because she was suffering calamities too many to bear, but she was soldiering on. I said, "Hold still a moment" and embraced here there in the grocery isle. She hugged me back an told me ," Thank you. I needed that." We both did. Joy is contageous.

Marie Smith said...

The slow return of the light is a welcome addition to the cold and snow. It is hopeful really. Have a wonderful week, Jan. Merry Christmas!

Gigi said...

I too try to skip most of the news because it makes me sad and angry - and that's no way to live; that's for sure.

Have a Merry Christmas, my friend!

Red said...

You are putting a lot into this solstice season. Advent is also meaningful. Endings contains some very deep thought.